So, I am starting to reach the point where I'm not upset about other people being pregnant. I think it is because I have been thinking a lot about why I may be going through this trial. I think one of the reasons may be, so that I can help others. I babysit a lot for friends, I help out a lot with my siblings. We are even able to help out financially a lot. I know it would not be possible for us to do these things if we had children.
I've also felt more of a peace lately when it comes to the subject of pregnancy. I found out recently that 2 more of my sisters are pregnant. I am so excited about that! Sometimes when I'm praying to get pregnant (which I do every night), I think about what other people in my family need. Before my brother got married, I used to pray that if it was between him finding the right girl to marry, or me having a baby, I would rather him get married first. If it is between me having a baby, or one of my sisters having a baby, I would rather have my sister (who has also been trying hard to conceive) get pregnant.
I know prayer doesn't really work that way, but it brings me peace to see them have these blessings, that I have been praying so hard for them to receive.
I will get pregnant soon, I will have children, but until then, I am going to do everything I can to take care of my extended family, because I really think that that is what I am supposed to do right now.
As for the recent pregnancy fight, I went in for an HSG test. I like to call it a hysterical. Wow, yes, that was painful. I almost cried. I almost cried again, when they told me how perfect my tubes looked. I guess I am more beautiful on the inside! Ha! I am now going to be starting some progesterone, and possibly Metformin, although the side effects of that drug scare me. Next month, I will be starting Clomid too, so I'm excited about that too. Yes, things are looking up!
I've also felt more of a peace lately when it comes to the subject of pregnancy. I found out recently that 2 more of my sisters are pregnant. I am so excited about that! Sometimes when I'm praying to get pregnant (which I do every night), I think about what other people in my family need. Before my brother got married, I used to pray that if it was between him finding the right girl to marry, or me having a baby, I would rather him get married first. If it is between me having a baby, or one of my sisters having a baby, I would rather have my sister (who has also been trying hard to conceive) get pregnant.
I know prayer doesn't really work that way, but it brings me peace to see them have these blessings, that I have been praying so hard for them to receive.
I will get pregnant soon, I will have children, but until then, I am going to do everything I can to take care of my extended family, because I really think that that is what I am supposed to do right now.
As for the recent pregnancy fight, I went in for an HSG test. I like to call it a hysterical. Wow, yes, that was painful. I almost cried. I almost cried again, when they told me how perfect my tubes looked. I guess I am more beautiful on the inside! Ha! I am now going to be starting some progesterone, and possibly Metformin, although the side effects of that drug scare me. Next month, I will be starting Clomid too, so I'm excited about that too. Yes, things are looking up!
