Church was hard this week. I couldn't seem to concentrate on the lesson in Sunday School. All I could hear was all the babies in the classroom. Being Mormon, and not being able to have children, is really difficult. Children are everywhere you look. I don't think that's bad at all, I just want to be a part of it. Then I started thinking again about how I am going to be 27 in a week.
I am really dreading this birthday. I can't believe that I am going to be 27, and yet I still have no children.
It feels like everyone is giving up on me having kids. I feel left out on conversations about children, conversations about trying to get pregnant. I don't know why, but even my sisters don't really talk to me about this anymore. I am excited about them having children. It does hurt some, but overall I'm excited. I love my niece and nephew more than I can express. I can't get enough of them. I guess people feel that telling me they are pregnant is going to hurt me, but honestly, being left out hurts more.
Ugh. Just some venting, because this blog is my only outlet for it. Anyone else out there feeling this?
I am really dreading this birthday. I can't believe that I am going to be 27, and yet I still have no children.
It feels like everyone is giving up on me having kids. I feel left out on conversations about children, conversations about trying to get pregnant. I don't know why, but even my sisters don't really talk to me about this anymore. I am excited about them having children. It does hurt some, but overall I'm excited. I love my niece and nephew more than I can express. I can't get enough of them. I guess people feel that telling me they are pregnant is going to hurt me, but honestly, being left out hurts more.
Ugh. Just some venting, because this blog is my only outlet for it. Anyone else out there feeling this?
